By any chance is your middle name Procrastination? No? Are you sure about that? Because I feel like that is your main excuse. You don't have time for exercising or eating right or reading a book or getting a coach to help you get out of the slump but you have time for things that don't help you level up like binge drinking, playing games on your phone, relentless fackbooking and more.
You say you want change but your actions speak differently. You say your job is your demise